A year ago Dermot and I were in Italy for our first holiday in a very long time.
After having been housebound for several months, it was amazing to be well enough to be abroad and to do so many things I wouldn’t have dreamt would be possible before DNRS (more about that holiday here).
And in that moment it really felt like everything was falling into place.
Things continued to improve when we got back home and almost everything did fall into place.
Except one long-term goal, dream or wish – whatever you prefer to call it :)
We actually received some difficult news about 6 months after our holiday in Italy which made it feel as though this long-term goal would never materialise after all.
I can’t deny that for some time I felt crushed.
I tried reminding myself how lucky I was to have recovered, to be able to live life fully again and to have learned so many valuable lessons while I was chronically ill.
And yet there was this voice in my head which would remind me more often than I would have wished that this long-term goal would never be.
That I might have recovered but that I still wouldn’t be able to achieve the thing that motivated me most to recover, the thing Dermot and I wanted so badly.
But now things seem to be falling into place again.
The path to reaching this goal might turn out to be slightly different from the way we initially thought we would get there.
But the beauty is that we’re going to get there and we’re so excited about it.
There’s still a long way to go but Dermot and I both feel that in fact this was God’s plan for us all along.
And it’s almost funny to think now of the times when it felt as though everything was falling apart.
Seeing them start to fall into place really is the best feeling in the world.
And to anyone whose world seems to be falling apart, I know right now it might not seem so.
I know right now it might feel like things are just too difficult.
But know that eventually, things have a way of falling into place.
One way or another.
It might not be the way you thought, planned or hoped.
And yes – it might be the most difficult thing you need to face.
But this too shall pass.
And you will get through it.
And it will make you stronger.
And things will fall into place.
And until they do, I will be thinking of you and praying for you and knowing that you can do this x x x